Empty Days: All street dwellers get these, days when you are in a new town and are unsettled, or when the library or daycentre is closed, when you have no money or have suffered another crisis (don't pretend there aren't crisis times), days when people treat you like dirt for being homeless, treat you as if it is your fault and as if only winos and addicts and bad people are homeless. Days when you want the day to end but wonder if the next day will be any better.
On days like this, look for company even if you don't feel companiable, go into an open church or to the samaritans, hopefully you will be able to have a sit down and pass the time of day.
Or go for a walk if you can walk, go to a river or a train station and watch life sail by. Sit on a bench and enjoy the privilage of sitting and doing nothing while those angry businessmen in posh cars shout into their phones as they drive and go bald about sales figures and commission, be glad that you are not them, they are no better off than you spiritually and may well spend their lives thinking it is all about money and how they need more, see what I mean? maybe not :)
Go to the daycentre if it is open, eat a lot, eat everything they can give you and ask for more, smuggle some of their books out under your jumper. Tell the staff your heartwrenching story with as much drama as you can. If the library is open then go and read educational books or go on the internet and read homeless blogs :) write one yourself.
find websites of jokes and laugh.
Eventually the day will end and the wonderful world of dark and night begins, soup kitchen, blankets, all the good things that indoors dwellers missout on.
Things will get better
maybe
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